This was from my Sociology of Emotions coursepack. How neat and aptly described. I like this reading already.

Somehow i am feeling extremely congested. Mentally. I don't know what i can do to extricate myself from all these arbitrariness. Talking in cryptic language further obscures my preoccupations.

Sometimes i don't know what to make of situations. And i am a "worrywart" and i tend to think a lot. So that works in my detriment. When i don't think about things, perhaps they will turn out more decently. Or more to my expectations.

I just need a break. Some entertainment that can throw my attention off things for a while. I don't want to get hurt. I am defensive and i prefer to keep the balance. I don't like confrontations and i prefer au naturel. But sometimes things just cannot be forced even though i may wish to have my way all the time. Not everyone beckons and abides.

Perhaps i am not ready, unprepared and not good enough. I don't know. So disturbing.



"will you not be so picky please?"