Friday, June 25, 2010 / 6:57 PM
end of ac

Whoa and there goes arts camp. Just ended like that.
Tired, but i guess i helped in as many ways as possible, physically and monetary. But it could have been better.
Some nasty encounters, some pleasant meetings, but nonetheless its yet another camp. Glad that the freshies loved it, even though it may have not been the best one we have had.


Now it's back to normal life.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010 / 2:02 AM
Moderation, not excess

Anything in excess is not good, even though you might like the taste or touch or feel of something.

If you like gold, its not a wise idea to paint the whole room gold, because it makes everything so golden and uh, oppressive. If you like laksa, it is very detrimental to your health if you gulp down 20 bowls at one go, and maybe clog up some arteries. If you like silk, you could buy a lot of silk, but you cannot possibly make every piece of clothing using just silk. This means you have to dry clean every piece of silk clothing, and that's gonna cost you a bomb!

So, we should take everything in MODERATION.

Just like there is a limit to everyone's patience. We all have a limit that we know we should not try to venture beyond. We could try, thinking that well, we all need to challenge ourselves a little bit right? But the flip side is we could die while trying it, or get seriously hurt. So why take such a big risk when you already know the consequences?

Be an adult, be rational, otherwise it is just tough for everyone. We all have a role to play in life, so take on whatever role you have to play at this point in time, and stick with it. Wait till better roles come along.

And of course, don't tell lies too often. Mean what you say, and DO WHAT YOU SAY. Ever heard of the story of the boy who cried wolf? If you haven't, telling lies was what the boy did and in the end, when he really needed help, no one bothered because he was DISHONEST. VOILA! His herd of sheep got gobbled up by wolves.

Anyway, treat people the way you want them to treat you, but do it in moderation and rationality. Be sensitive and always make sure feelings are balanced. Relationships may be super volatile, but hey, it's just how you manage it. Change a perspective and well, things would be easy peasy.

Got that?

Saturday, June 12, 2010 / 2:18 AM
let sleeping dogs lie

Too many things left unsaid, secrets left behind in the aged chest.
But sometimes it's better to leave things to be, instead of digging them out and then expect some sort of closure. Like a cold case that wants to be solved but no capable people to do it.

I sometimes wonder what am i exactly looking out for. What is my life perspective and what do i want to achieve. Someone asked me what are my personal and career goals for the next three years, and i stared blankly for quite some time. I don't know, to be honest.

Being an adult now hasn't pushed me enough. I guess i am comfortable as usual. Hard to come to decisions and just want to let sleeping dogs lie. Headache. Keeping things that are recycled, where the person who gave it to me probably doesn't even remember that she had given me. Nicely taped to my wall. It's pretty, so i will keep it.

And don't make promises that you cannot keep. It's really sickening as i reflect upon the words and handwriting of yours, wondering what exactly goes on behind this beautiful facade. Lies? More lies? Or simply confusion and flux? I don't want to hazard any guesses. Let sleeping dogs lie.

Body hasn't exactly been that cooperative. Perhaps excessive thought is detrimental to the health. And yet i cannot stop myself.

Tired of so many things, i want change. But change is so hard to materialize, so hard to reinforce and execute.

Watching idol dramas make me feel a sense of longing. Wonder if someone will be there to care for me when i am sick, when i am sad, when i am lonely or when i just need someone to talk to me. Mr camera's theories are what i want to hear most. I listen to the dead of the night and all i can hear are mechanical sounds.

Bah, let sleeping dogs lie. Look beyond the immediate, and i might actually chance upon something precious.

Monday, June 07, 2010 / 1:59 AM



find me something to dooooooooooooooooo

Saturday, June 05, 2010 / 3:32 AM

身体报恙, 体格欠佳。
人, 有旦夕之祸福。
是你的,就是你的, 强求不来。
但姑且不谈一山还有一山高, 有理想和高瞻远瞩的精神,才能使人勇敢前进。
可是有了野心, 却会让人迷失方向, 看不清楚自己的面孔。

水里反射的那个人, 是谁?

Friday, June 04, 2010 / 2:13 AM

Actually it's not so bad to type in chinese once in a while. Kind of a new experience too. Weather now is terribly hot, and i really cannot stand it, but with two out of three air conditioners already going at full blast, i guess i shall do my part for the conservation of our environment and stick to the fan instead.

Interesting day today, managed to try out a restaurant that i have never been to. Definitely gonna head back there the next time with my homies. Had really good macroons and lovely flowers. Thanks! Then took a bus back and happily fell asleep. Guess i am really settling back in, reverting to my old lifestyle and being really comfortable being home and all. Takes a while to get used to everything once again.

And also, sometimes having to readjust my expectations of other people. It is true that some of us have certain issues with ourselves. They are usually minor, but some can escalate into huge problems. And i don't talk in rhetoric unlike some people, so it's easier to figure out what i am thinking. Or if you are bad in chinese then i am sorry lor.

But in any case, so much expectations are being shot down it makes me a bit demoralised. Haha or defeated, wondering if i should persevere on when it's all so one-sided. I do want to make effort you know, but it takes two to clap and i am tired of being the one being so assertive and chirpy when all my words just hit against these walls and fall back down to the floor.

Tired? You bet.

Anyohow, i gotta keep moving on. Nobody has time to stop and think too much out of issues like these. Gotta get some sleep!NIGHTS :)

bio tag misc past
musings of a superhero girl
All the love in the world, dear John