Monday, November 30, 2009 / 9:17 PM
1st day of work

Reached Ion really early today for work! So i headed to the Tea Loft for some nice milk tea, warm drink to kick start the day! Today was the first day of work for me at this upscale stationery shop in Ion orchard! Really excited and wondered what would working as a retail personnel be like.

Went into the shop with the team leader and well, started to learn how to use the cashier and all the nitty gritty admin stuff. It was pretty hard to visualise how to do the cashing and all that, especially when it involves credit cards since i had no way to have some hands on. It was only when the customers began to enter and i had to learn on the spot, like INTUITIVELY. WHOA. I was super nervous i tell you.

My first sale of the day was this guy who came in and bought a $5.90 pen from me. HAHA totally fulfilled my goal for the day! Subsequently more and more people came in, and it was a mad rush at the cashier. Honestly, it can get pretty scary when there are so many customers who would like to pay up for their stuff at the same time and when you gotta handle the machines and paperwork! CHALLENGING, BUT FUN :)

Then there was this really awesome Caucasian woman who bought $200plus worth of stuff from me. COOL! :DDDDD Brightened up my day too, since her baby was super adorable! Haha.

Well today was indeed an experience, and i met some pretty famous people too! Ahh the joys of being in Ion. And some people are really willing to spend money for their friends and themselves, since most of the merchandise do not come cheap. Met some unruly people and mean people too, but not the customers. Tsk!

Gonna be back there next monday!

Sunday, November 29, 2009 / 7:59 PM
these days

My left eyelid has been twitching intermittently for close to a week now. If it persists, i guess i might just have to see a doctor about it. Yikes.

Seems like i have lost connection with some people these days, either unintentionally or perhaps by sabotage. I don't know, and i don't wish to inquire and implore. Truth hurts, eh?

And studying hasn't been very productive since i have such a massive inertia to study for emotions and social life. Gotta work my shift tmr at kikki-K too. Gah i havent really prepared myself and well, i guess i shall just go there and learn the ropes! Not expecting too much too, it's just an open heart and a big smile from me.

Preparations for SEP are not finished, and i must say i am damnnnnn slack. I need a personal assistant for SEP related matters. Seriously! Still gotta get my modules approved and get ready for module adding, and i would loathe to know the exam results. Scared about it.

Then again my airtickets are confirmed! I will be leaving on the 28th of Dec, 7.20am flight and coming back on the 15th of May 2010, evening time.

To my friends who i have lost connection with, i wish you well :)

So, amidst my grogginess and sleepiness, i shall try to understand Jamieson and Illouz and emotions. Heh heh heh.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009 / 9:32 PM
how to save a life

Just recalled this sms a few days back. Really pissed me off.
Some people really cannot be trusted. You expect so much from them in exchange for so much you gave them, but what happens in the end?


At the very least the basis was not mutual, and therefore i should not have any regrets or angst but somehow i just feel utterly wretched that i had to be disposed of by you, as if i was just another piece of tissue paper to wipe off some dirt on your pretty shoes.

DARN. It makes me feel so angry just to think about it, i just feel exploited.

Other people said bad things about you, stayed a safe distance away, but i tried to reconcile you guys and you just didn't appreciate me. You took me for granted, just like a stepping stone and now you walk away with bulging pockets and armful of everything. You good.

I shall try to revenge myself, at least somehow i should right. Doesn't make sense that i am the only one battered and discounted.

If only i could reach out to you at the right time and prevented all these. If only i could have stopped the sadness. Everything and nothing.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

/ 1:07 AM

Social thought and social theory really owned me. THANKS AH. Sob T_T


Sunday, November 22, 2009 / 7:46 PM
clouds form fairytales

I wonder if you have seen the skies this evening, as i had saw while taking a walk.
It was something out of a fairytale, with castles and unicorns being shaped by the Wind.
Like a picturesque paradise shaped by clouds, moving and singing to the sunset.
I had wanted to take some pictures, but i didn't bring my phone with me.


But trust me, looking at such a beautiful sky that i didn't expect would look this good after a whole day of studying and napping, was magnificent. I am revising my work for SC3101 Social Thought and Social Theory, and oh my god there are so much stuff to the classics! Wonder what the hell i was doing for the whole semester that made me feel so overwhelmed now. Guess it was the SSS. Haha.

And yeah i shall be starting work at kikki-K in December, so you can come catch me there! Haha hope it will be fruitful and enriching, gonna make use of the Christmas season to earn some extra pocket money.

Humph i am still looking for an apartment. Wish i had relatives there or something so that house hunting would not be so troublesome! And why is McGill campus housing SO FRIGGIN EXPENSIVE TSK TSK. If not i would have stayed on campus already! Tsk.

So much more stuff to read, but i guess i shall study as much as i can. No point overloading myself and memorising all the information but i am not going to engage the question right? So i shall try to understand and remember as much as i can and then tackle the questions head on!

Jiayou for SC3101! :)

Friday, November 20, 2009 / 4:57 PM

jiayou sc2101 :)

/ 1:58 AM


Wednesday, November 18, 2009 / 11:42 PM


Coldplay has got to be the best band EVER. Mainstream i like.

Now gotta try to study more stuff. NOT MUCH TIME LEFT OMG OMG.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 / 11:47 PM
long lost friend

Somehow i find that i don't understand you anymore. Maybe it's my problem? I don't know.

We hardly talk, and i hardly see you, but i understand you are busy. Same scenario re-played so many times in different contexts.

Perhaps it takes time to get to know someone. Really wrong to think that you can be as close as buddies in such a short time. Sorry.

Then again, we have our things to be busy over with. Can't possibly expect you to talk to me all the time, but just in case you happen to read my blog, i will be a good friend for you, be it in need or just for fun.

Hang in there my friend :)

Sunday, November 15, 2009 / 10:31 PM
house hunting in montreal

I think i am too concerned with finding an apartment in Montreal already. I practically refresh my craigslist webpage every now and then and send out emails at lightning speed.

I really need to study.

The exams are this Saturday but nothing is going inside my head! I feel an impending sense of DOOM but somehow the cognitive and the somatic are failing.


Divine intervention soon.

Saturday, November 14, 2009 / 12:32 PM
cold day

It was still bright and sunny when i woke up this morning. Then the sky started to get darker and darker and it drizzled, then rained. Now the rain is getting lighter, the breeze better, and i can see the lightening of the sky. A nice comfortable bluish grey.

The sounds of the raindrops splattering on the floor and how the cars whizz by. Such an endearing Saturday afternoon.

Sometimes i don't understand some people anymore. It's like you think you know what they are thinking but then when they do something wholly different it slaps you in the face, chiding yourself for having been so confident and assured.

Or those who put on a facade, pretending to be weak and helpless when actually they have everything going well for them. Or pretending to not understand anything so they don't have to help you out. And i hate being misunderstood.

Haven't had anything to eat, and there is only instant noodles at home. What a bore. Maybe i should go without food. Can lose weight too. Haha.


Thursday, November 12, 2009 / 1:36 AM
like a page out of dreams

A step taken today, and that's all that matters.

Some people are really spiteful and well, hard to understand. But it's okay, i shall take your words with a pinch of salt. You will not bring me down. I shall stand tall and look afar, seeing my goal in the proximity, reaching the citadel of my dreams.

I will overcome my challenges. I know i will.

Just like an oak tree, being resilient and strong is so my thing. That's what it seems to. But beyond this cloak of strong will there is a hidden corner where the most innate and precious emotions reside. And that is guarded by trillions of locks and gazillion walls and barbed wires. You cannot enter it, and the guardian will not allow you to. All it takes is a magical moment, a pure heart and a lasting love to gain access.

But we all know that fairy tales are meant for story books and docile children. Just like how adults cannot hear the ring of the Christmas bell, our experiences and wretched souls fail to hear, see and dream again. No one can blame another one, for these are the makings of our own.

Here lies Patience.

all the best shuli, you will surmount your challenges :)

Tuesday, November 10, 2009 / 11:31 PM
studying out

Studying, all to the heart's delight.

Monday, November 09, 2009 / 3:31 PM

Laughter and dances.

I feel the germs.

Thursday, November 05, 2009 / 3:08 PM


It is just so terribly hard to fathom what exactly they need you know. Everything is so abstract and "up to you" that i am kind of afraid whether i am heading in the right direction. Hmm.

I just want to finish this and relax a little and stop procrastinating. Guess that is what i have been good at this whole semester.

And exchange seems really scary, because there seems to be so many things that i have to do before i leave!

I really neeed someone to talk to. FAST.

Monday, November 02, 2009 / 12:47 AM
what if...

Sometimes i look back and i wondered if i could have done certain things in a better way. Or talked more politely and smiled more and asked less. I loathe the "what ifs" in life, but somehow it all comes back to this and i wonder if things would have been different if someone had chosen to slot me in that group and not this one with a click of the mouse and saving the document.

How miraculous that things just happen like that, in a mysterious way, stuff happen.

Man can invent all sorts of gadgets to claim mastery over nature, but i don't know if that will ever be possible. So many things cannot be explained, just like emotions. You can't just formulate some programme and expect to control emotions. Gah i don't know.

Somehow i find that people can be so fickle. One moment they claim allegiance and loyalty, the next few moments they are philandering somewhere else. Or sweet talking to some. Perhaps L is right that some guys just cannot get it. Despite making the same mistake, they make it again. And they sometimes cannot learn and improve themselves, putting in some effort to make it natural and comfy.

Of course, i know that i should not set out to change someone, should i get into a relationship. But somehow we girls just want that extra romance, that extra sms, that extra MSN convo, that extra dinner, that extra movie and that extra humour and cuteness. There are so much more little "extras" that we want from guys, but some guys JUST CANNOT GET IT.

Then it makes us envious to hear about our friends having really awesome boyfriends and how happy they are and all, making us wonder what is wrong with ourselves.

Goodness gracious!

Romance should not seem like something forced and irregular, but should be seen as something that is done effortlessly and naturally, as if it came just like that. It doesn't have to be a purposive performance!

Well, Arts Open was a success i guess. Nice work everyone. Gotta heal my sun burn its quite horrid! And start activating myself.

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