Wednesday, April 29, 2009 / 12:44 AM

Sociology of Tourism seems harder than the past year papers. Hmm. Fingers crossed.
Managed to write some stuffs, and hope they are relevant!

28 April is the day where Nichiren Daishonin's Buddhism was establised in 1253. Cool.

Monday, April 27, 2009 / 11:25 PM

Blanked out for 15 minutes. Totally didn't know what to write. Questions were way tough and nothing that i had expected.

Oh dear oh dear. Open book is just as tough, maybe a little less tough. ARGHHHH.
Tmr soci of tourism. Good Luck, Shuli!

/ 1:23 PM

Jiayou Shuli!

I have to give all i can, no matter how scared and unprepared i am. Its THE EXAMS now. Whoa. And i hope i walk out of these in one piece, and still sane.

hahahahhaaha :o)

Saturday, April 25, 2009 / 9:23 PM

I think i have said before how much i like the smell of the night. It is so liberal, so free, so bold.

Well the exams are coming, less than one day away. I bumped into someone today, who told me that it is simple to finish revising for all your modules in 2 days and you will be ready to go for the exams. Hmm.

That doesn't really apply to me. I have so many readings that i have not touched, and it really isn't enough to just stick to the lecture notes and expect that you will be able to squeeze out good essays during the exams. Bad planning on my part. Complacent too.

So i envy those with talent(s).

Sing, dance, act, talk, show, work, design.

I will not go gently into the night.

Sunday, April 19, 2009 / 5:52 PM
exams are making me go berserk

I guess now is the time where everyone is stressed and afraid of the impending exams. But then there are still some people who are extremely prepared already and are enjoying the week leading up to the finals.

I am totally unprepared.

In fact, stress is never good to have. It makes me on the brink of tears sometimes, thinking about how am i going to digest 3 months' worth of readings and knowledge so as to prep myself to be able to take the finals. All i want is to be able to get at least cap 3 for this sem. It is not a pretty sem to have. Worst as compared to last sem i must say.

Still i feel as if everyone else are more prepared than me. Sigh, the bell curve is going to put me to my death. Especially for Inequalities and Literature. Both mods reduce me to an inferior being. And then there is still soci of tourism, which has me completely befuddled and well, confused. Family is still understandable, yet there are so many things about it that gets me pretty nervous too. Singapore Society encompasses EVERYTHING.

With mods like these, i feel as if i totally wasted this sem. In fact, i cannot recall how i spent this sem. Everything is a blur. Guess that is what happens when you go with the flow and somehow time just swishes past you. No one can help me but myself, i knowwww.

HAIZ!!! Gotta study as much as i can for this week, and pray for the best :D

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Thursday, April 16, 2009 / 12:21 AM
i injured my ankle

Sinseh alert.
And now i walk with a LITTLE difficulty.

The trip to the sinseh was interesting, where he graaaaaked a few joints of mine here and there and all. So scary!

I really gotta take better care of myself. Cannot be so 'accident' anymore! And with the exams approaching me i feel a little scared but with a defeatist attitude slowly surging. Nobody really sympathises with you since everyone is just as stressed. But somehow i feel that other people are MORE PREPARED and MORE CONFIDENT than me. And the bell curve is a blind and emotionless device that can make or break you.

This sem is no good. Gotta work hard next sem!

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Saturday, April 11, 2009 / 1:36 PM


I don't know what to say and how to react! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?
Just what is wrong with me? Why can't i achieve things just like OTHERS? I feel like i am left behind the paper chase, and this scares me A LOT.
What can i do? How do i help myself?


With my nervous fidgeting, i decided it was high time i get a cupcake. Or maybe two.

And exams are cominggggg. But i don't feel confident and there is a blight in my head. To quote Randy Pausch, brick walls are not there for nothing. If you really want it, you'll find a way through them.


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Wednesday, April 08, 2009 / 11:06 PM
lonely road, take me home

I have had an unhappy situation. It wasn't something particularly memorable, not something that one would wish that it would happen. Oh well, you just cannot predict things sometimes. You win some, you lose some.

So i drove back with a heavy heart and somehow i took the wrong expressway. Perhaps i was so preoccupied with my thoughts that i did not really pay attention to where i was driving, and i was already on the expressway. Blessing in disguise? I don't know.

Since i was already on the wrong road, i just continued driving. Went all the way to Changi Airport and had my dinner at McDonalds. Saw this really happy family sitting in front of me. So adorable, so touching. As far as i can gather, they were sending off the father, and the children suggested to have dinner at McDonalds. It put a smile on my face seeing how bubbly the children were, and the way they ate their ice cream and fries. Lots of laughter emanating from the table, and sought to chase my dark clouds away.

Well, they left happily, so i continued sitting at my seat finishing my food. Read a few pages of In the Castle of My Skin, read some Adler's paper, wrote some stuff and then proceeded to walk around Changi Airport.

I was at Terminal 2, the arrival hall. Saw so many people coming out of the gates, pushing their trolleys and waiting for taxis. Tour guides, tourists, Singaporeans coming home... Kinda made me wanna be an air stewardess. Haha, flying around the world and meeting all sorts of people. Seeing things differently.

Then i sat down at one of the seats and closed my eyes. Fell asleep for a while and then woke up and headed for my car. AND IT WAS 8PM ALREADY. Not feeling well too.

I veered off lane for a while, and the way back from Changi Airport was so terribly long so i did doze off... BUT I AM OKAYYYY SINCE I AM BLOGGING NOW HAHAHA.

SOOOOOOO, to keep myself awake i kept talking to myself, reciting what i remember from Sociology of Family about mate selection, normal family ideology and then i realise i don't remember much..XD

And it seems like it is going to rain soon. Can totally smell the air. Love this sort of smell :D

Exams are in less than 3 weeks and i haven't started revision. This sem is baaaaaaaaaaaaaad.

late nights and htht

Gosh, I really need some reinforcements and STRENGTH.

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Sunday, April 05, 2009 / 9:51 PM
i <3 shuli



nothing is impossible. just do it.

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Wednesday, April 01, 2009 / 11:11 PM
emo me

I know i am the emotional one, the one who thinks a lot and tends to become melancholic.

Honestly, i feel for so many things. I want change for so many things, hoping to exert some effort and make things better. I hope to improve situations and cheer people up.

Yet in the midst of doing all these for other people, there are times when i feel the silence in the crowd. So many people around me yet i feel alone. The sheer feeling of silent screams is not a cliche, but something that is very true and happening in me at times. It feels as if i am trying to speak up and everyone else think that my opinions don't matter and i am nothing.

Rapture is a strange thing, and damsels weep when the good ol days are over. When you are simply wilting and just not as pretty as before.

I loathe the way attitudes and perceptions are being formed sometimes.

Why am i always stuck in this rut? In this never-ending shit? In a world i seem to have no control over the things? Helplessness, really.

And where are you when i need you? When i hope you will be here? WHERE.

i am going berserk soon.

/ 12:44 AM

fulfilling life!

haha and i am gonna go get that bottle of kimchi later. I AM COMING FOR YOUUUUUU!


/ 12:42 AM

i need money.
i want to earn money without compromising on my time.


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