Monday, August 31, 2009 / 11:15 PM


/ 3:00 AM

ROP just ended. Well it has been quite an eye opener for me to be part of the ocomm for ROP, even though i didn't play a big part in the programmes and such. Guess it has been really tiring for everyone.

Anyway, i am peeved that some idiot took my yellow highlighter. TSK. There is my name on it lor so whoever took it I DISLIKE YOU ALREADY.

Hate to feel this way sometimes, it's like you give me some inkling of hope and it flickers here and there. So strange. But i know better than to harp on things. So peace out!

And to think of it, I am really like Miss Independent. Way to go Ne-Yo.

Friday, August 28, 2009 / 1:54 AM

AIYOH. Suddenly i feel like roaming the streets now. ALL BECAUSE A BREEZE CAME INTO MY ROOM AND I LIKED THE SMELL.

And since it's raining it will be even more wonderous to just head out.

/ 1:29 AM
1.47am and it's raining

I wonder how can i feel again when strings are broken. Ties shaken. Truth hurts.

I somehow like James Morrison more and more.

Well its been quite a week, still very slack and feeling very unfit. Think its time to go exercise! Or do something that induces endorphins in me. Need to beef up my emotional status.

STUDY STUDY STUDY but i seem to procrastinate a lot.

Seems like i always think i know someone really well, but then when it comes to the crunch time it doesn't seem like that anymore. Or someone withholds truths from me. I don't know why. Someone told me that it's because humans are selfish creatures, so we always want to have the best things for ourselves. I never really liked to share things, so that perhaps explains why.

When i was little
I used to dream a lot. I wanted to be a singer, a lawyer, a dancer and air stewardess. Then i grew up, and realised that i don't have a singing voice, i cannot really debate very well, i have two left feet when it comes to professional dancing and i don't have a pretty face with a fab figure. So i kind of got on with life, not knowing what i want. The same goes for relationships. With friends and more.

Just now someone asked me what kind of relationship and guy do i look for. I dream of someone tall, not bad looking, intellectual, well-groomed, friendly, caring, humorous and fillial. So much to ask for huh?

I says that its tough to really find someone who is better than me in all aspects. That leads me to wonder why. HUMPH.

J and D says i expect too much. Really?

W tells me to chill and heck care.

WELL. I think its cool to be a nun. Don't know don't care. A steady stream of people.


Wednesday, August 26, 2009 / 1:07 AM
chasing pavements

I've made up my mind
No need to think it over
If i'm wrong i am right
Don't need to look no further
This ain't lust
I know this is love, but

If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough
Cos it was not said to you
And that's exactly what i need to do
If I'm in love with you

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste
Even if i knew my place
Should i leave it there?
Or should i just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up
And ride around in circles
Waiting as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it or

Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste even if i knew my place
Should i leave it there

Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

one of my favourite songs, so apt and so real.

Monday, August 24, 2009 / 1:57 AM
happy 21st, daisy

Very happy to have gotten to know Daisy and be part of her 21st birthday party. YOU ROCK MY LIFE DAISY KOH! PUR PUR :D

Happy 21st, and cheers to our friendship :)

Thursday, August 20, 2009 / 1:46 AM

i think sometimes i just want to break out of the norms. like why do i have to be grammatically correct with the capital letters and such? but somehow there is a part in me that retains this sense of decency and morality and definitely conservatism.

it was nice meeting up with friends and going to nice places. love to do that.

maybe it is because i am used to staying up late that even though i know that i am very tired and sleepy somehow there is an inertia to fall asleep. like i just want to preserve this moment and such. but then i know that sometimes i am just plain silly and ridiculous.


lately there have been some choices made, and some routes to take. i don't know why there is still this blight in my head. perhaps i really think too much all the time. perhaps people tell me the wrong advice and i so need to filter them properly. in any case, i think sleep helps me to read my readings better and faster.

i love htht with people that matter to me. :O)

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 / 2:02 AM

somehow the air smells strangely sweet now. at 2.02am.

i can hear the cars and the crickets, and i can feel the gentle night breeze. the whole house is quiet but i am still up. in fact as i look opposite the blocks of flats are all pitch black.

i don't want to be so emo, but the night is making it happen. and everytime a breeze touches me softly as it enters my right window i feel so noticed. as if mother nature is caressing me and telling me to jiayou. and that its ok.

aiyoo. terrible.

perhaps it is time to move on and get more busy so that i will not think too much. i am too much of a worry wart. and it was nice to have that dream because it felt so real that i wish i could dream more of it. but then again we are bound to wake up from dreams so there really is no point. silly me.

yeah sometimes i find myself really silly and funny. when i look back i will realise what a fool i have been, being so bothered and hung up about such things.

go away, you making-shuli-miserable-bug.SHOO.

/ 1:00 AM

i hate it that you make me feel this way.
for a while i was hanging on to something
something that vaguely resembled of an outcome that i really wanted
but then you threw it all away
left it exposed and fester
and now there is nothing left of me
as i stagger out of this stupor
knowing that i deserve better
only not knowing when i can meet another guy

i don't know what i want anymore.
you messed up my mind.
now i am not happy to begin school.
at least for this week i feel really down.

i so got to get back my composure

Monday, August 17, 2009 / 1:22 AM

I don't know how to make of these. It's really complicated.

Arts Bash was really fun! Haha i got to be made up by Jill Lowe i think. She seems like the Lady Boss, but was very nice and sweet in helping me put on my make up. And i must thank them for making me look pretty onstage! LOVE THE HAIR.

Strangely, i was totally relaxed despite having to host bash. It was like nothing. I just went up there and did my thing with Deepan and that was it! Haha and many a times we didn't follow the script and just made things up as we go along. That's the fun of emceeing.

But i didnt really stay to club. Prolly because we were all tired and not in the mood. Reached home really tired and felt sick. And then today i dragged myself to teach tuition although i wasn't feeling very well and came back home to sleep. All the way i concussed till evening and went for dinner with family at Holland Village. I looked terribly chui! But at least i managed to eat something :D

Week 2 begins later, and i must start studying!! Already behind in my readings :( jaja! LALA!

if i kissed you.

Thursday, August 13, 2009 / 10:25 PM

Despite all my attempts he doesn't get it. AT ALL.

Gahh, i wish i had a fairy godmother to bring Prince Charming to me.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009 / 10:25 PM

This is going to be an emo post. Like totally.

This is my second day of school, and somehow i feel like i am lagging behind. Feels very tiring, very stifling. I don't know what has gotten over me and somehow my cheery self has been obscured. I hate this way i am feeling and i don't know what i can do to make this feeling go away.

Perhaps it is the sense of detachment i feel with my friends, those who i have came to uni with. It just seems like they suddenly uprooted and left. We seem to have lesser things to talk about now, and if we bump into each other its really just a brief acknowledgment of each other's presence. It seems so forced and i wish i can make things better! ARGH. I want to go back to how we always hang out and all.

O week has really drained me out in certain aspects, learning new things and having to deal with new problems that i never knew would happen. But in the process i have walked away with more to arm myself in life... For any such things that may happen again. Of course, i know i have to be wiser when i do things now.

I need to get my mojo back. LIKE NOW. And perhaps i need more me time. To really find out what am i supposed to do. And stop being so ambivalent. SIGHHHHHHHHHHH.


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