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Saturday, August 19, 2006 / 12:11 AM
i'm a can of sardines Man, i think i must have been cursed or something. Math is so not in my favour. I mean, why does substitution and differential equations got to do with anything about my future? It's not like i need to use these formulas to find out the price of a bag of oranges. This is all so absurd. It is like the theatre of the absurd or what so ever. Argh..Math tutorials are just like an oven and i am like a can of sardines trapped inside that has been turned to max heat, waiting to explode into pieces and look like pathetic goo. Ok..Don't wanna sound like some whiny school girl. Things have just not been going right for me today and i feel like a thousand tonnes of burden were resting on my shoulders. Had to struggle to make my way home too. Everything just felt like plain crap. Dunno why i have been feeling so dejected. Perhaps itsbecause of all the smart and intelligentppl all around me and teachers who don;t seem to like me cos well, i am slow. I dunno man. Ifeel so downright stupid with all the people around me. Ppl who are trying to get to the top by stepping on you and making sure their grades are sparkling perfect. Is it tad bad?, you say. Perhaps i am thinking too much but well, it stinks when you know you arent one of the average students around. Its like i feel so freaking inferior and lousy and no one even bothers about me. Is my school tad unfeeling? Perhaps not. I still have a few friends who well, cares to help me out. Oh boy... Then there is still the promos that are in 5 weeks time. Gosh, its hard to keep on a smile when u are a Student-At-Risk. Meaning, you may be retained at the end of the year due to unsatisfactory results for the common test. GREAT. Now there is just one more thing to aggravate my already bad mood. Then there is the frantic flshback of my life and then i feel my lungs constrict and then heave out a huge and heavy sigh not of relief but regret. What am i suppose to do man? So continuing with my revision for the awfully dreaded promos and the horrible math lecture test next week, i feel nothing but DOOM. Like the whole world is swirling around me and i cannot hear any other voices but mine screaming for some kind of aid to come along. Perhaps there could be an angel who will descend from the heavens and grant me 3 wishes? Anyway, there is nothing much complaining can do to help one out. So gotta keep my fingers crossed and hope that i will tide through this period. Chocolates should not be the main snack right now but well, i have practically devoured all the Godiva choc. Maybe its high time to replenish my stocks. All right, my eyes are seriously drying up. Gotta go for some drink and rest for a while before attending to my part of the written report. Shucks. There is the tutor coming down on Sunday and gosh, i dunno wad to expect. Just gotta fire him with truckloads of questions and see if he can "tahan" my slowness. Ok..Please tag! Feel tad my tag board is so stagnant that dengue mosquitoes are breeding there. But oh well, lame. |
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