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Saturday, July 26, 2008 / 1:29 AM
out of the fruity loop Seems like when you don't refresh a page fast enough, you can miss new information that is constantly being updated. You fall into the gap, you don't seem to be able to catch up. Panic seeps in, then you gradually lose control and perhaps feel a little resigned to your fate and then fail to try to achieve something. You feel like the Bowlerman. One of the many faces in the crowd. The one who is just there. The talks of existentialism, the theory of nature versus nurture. People who just hustle along and run after the slightest thing that they find are precious. Follow plans! Make plans! Somehow the Joker got me on this one. Murphy's Law. Heard of it? WHAT CAN GO WRONG WILL GO WRONG. But of course, it is a theory proven by many academics and studies. However, it may not always be in place. Some activists propose positive thinking, that we control our own destiny and we shouldnt dismiss hiccups with a theory. Dumb founded. Seeing how the story unfolds, i cannot help but want to extricate myself from this mess. Hate the methods and solutions, hate the irreverent feelings. Don't know what to think, don't know which direction am i suppose to take this from. Sorry if this post sounds a little confusing and nonsensical. Trying to say something in an extremely beat-around-the-bush way. Anyway, been low on my finances. Time to take a deeper look and really stop procrastinating. |
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