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Monday, July 28, 2008 / 9:04 PM
spinning out of control Who ever said that somethings will be understood by us when we grow older? People always say that when we grow up and mature and see more, we get to understand and better appreciate things that we didn't when we were younger. Is maturity the answer key to life's questions? I certainly doubt so. But with the willing suspension of disbelief, that statement is true only to those who believe in it. And of course, I don't fully agree to it. I used to ask my mother how do babies come about (cliche, but still). Her reply was that they were picked up from rubbish dumps, just like me. I guess its the adult way of patronising and somewhat teasing the kids, but hey, kids are innocent and easily taken in. She said i would understand when i grow older. There are somethings that require me to comprehend and learn fast. I cannot be a child anymore, with everyone subjecting themselves to my whims and whines. It is time to really take things in my hand and be sure of what lies ahead. Of course, it is never easy to take up a responsibility. Right now, i feel so so so vexed, smothered, breathless and on a constant urge to break into tears whenever i think about it. I don't want to talk about anything, just want to feel some warmth and care and concern from my friends. There are times that the usually jovial and humorous Shuli may feel down and totally like shit. And the last thing she needs is to put on a brave front. |
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