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Sunday, October 05, 2008 / 10:28 PM
what the You cannot expect others to always take the initiative. So what if you are new to this and you have no idea what to do? Shouldn't you at least explore your options and try out? Patience is a virtue, but not everyone has excess of it. And even if there is a preference for a certain someone, and when there is too much inactivity or lack of reciprocation, interest can die. Even if there is fervor and passion. Don't stay behind the curtains and expect to be seen. Don't wait till its too late before you scream and regret. Say it while you can and when you have the chance. Tell so people know; no one knows what you are thinking of and what you want unless you TELL them. sigh. And i don't know what is wrong with this thing between my shoulders. It refuses to absorb information and it is not working as hard as i would like it to be. Though i feel the impending doom and the dark clouds looming above me i cannot seem to focus, concentrate and STUDY. It feels like a malady that is slowly taking over me, making me feel helpless and out of control. Why is everybody else absorbing knowledge well but i feel like a stagnant pool? It feels as if i am not working hard and i am not as smart too. SIGH. The stress is hovering but then i still feel the inertia. ARGH going out of my mind. I need help and care for so many things. Someone told me recently that she feels that i am a very strong person. Very independent and rational, and mature. When i heard this, i don't know how i should feel. Haha more flattered? Recently i heard about this word "fatigue" from a friend. It is used to describe the "breaking point" of a material, like how many times do we have to bend a metal for it to break and etc. So i wonder when will my fatigue set in. I feel the exhaustion of waiting happening. |
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