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Monday, November 02, 2009 / 12:47 AM
what if... Sometimes i look back and i wondered if i could have done certain things in a better way. Or talked more politely and smiled more and asked less. I loathe the "what ifs" in life, but somehow it all comes back to this and i wonder if things would have been different if someone had chosen to slot me in that group and not this one with a click of the mouse and saving the document. How miraculous that things just happen like that, in a mysterious way, stuff happen. Man can invent all sorts of gadgets to claim mastery over nature, but i don't know if that will ever be possible. So many things cannot be explained, just like emotions. You can't just formulate some programme and expect to control emotions. Gah i don't know. Somehow i find that people can be so fickle. One moment they claim allegiance and loyalty, the next few moments they are philandering somewhere else. Or sweet talking to some. Perhaps L is right that some guys just cannot get it. Despite making the same mistake, they make it again. And they sometimes cannot learn and improve themselves, putting in some effort to make it natural and comfy. Of course, i know that i should not set out to change someone, should i get into a relationship. But somehow we girls just want that extra romance, that extra sms, that extra MSN convo, that extra dinner, that extra movie and that extra humour and cuteness. There are so much more little "extras" that we want from guys, but some guys JUST CANNOT GET IT. Then it makes us envious to hear about our friends having really awesome boyfriends and how happy they are and all, making us wonder what is wrong with ourselves. Goodness gracious! Romance should not seem like something forced and irregular, but should be seen as something that is done effortlessly and naturally, as if it came just like that. It doesn't have to be a purposive performance! Well, Arts Open was a success i guess. Nice work everyone. Gotta heal my sun burn its quite horrid! And start activating myself. |
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