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Monday, August 06, 2007 / 9:29 PM
blabble I am getting so sick of this person(s). I don't know what she wants but she gives me that annoyed look every now and then; one minute she is all smiles and the next she looks so irritated. Early menopause? Then there is he wanting all the best from me and yet i always fail to meet his expectations. Is it because i am lousy or what? He never seems to give a shit about me and sometimes i feel so insignificant and so inferior amongst the talented ones. Am i that pathetic? What is the problem? I get so tired just trying to be what you hope i can be that sometimes i feel so lost and so irked. Then there is he who is all lofty and arrogant because he thinks that he is the most gorgeous man on earth. OMG. Can you like take a piss and look at yourself in it? Ok you do look hot but hey, quit showing it off yeah? Gets me so fed up in school sometimes. I don't know what to write so i am kind of just babbling incessantly and complaining like some spoilt kid. But hey, its been a rough day. Wait a minute, isn't everyday just as bad? I watch as the time passes by and all i feel is DREAD and WORRY. There are a ton of things to be studied and MEMORISED and i have done neither. It gets a little bit satirical when everyone around you starts to ask how many days are there till the start of the horrible big As. I think i am too colloquial, too informal and a little quirky in my writing. I like to be open and frank to my readers (if i have any) and i just want to let them know how i feel straight up. No frilly language or mind-boggling vocabulary- just plain o'l Shuli. But i am afraid this is not accepted within the parameters of school norm. Apparently, i need to IMPROVE. My style of writing is unacceptable and i am trying to master a whole new fantastic way of churning out beautiful essays, which to my despair have yet to take effect just yet. I guess that is just the beauty of life eh? Nothing is perfect and nothing works just the way you want it to be. What do you expect with Murphy's Law and gravity? Ok the law of gravity just makes everything sag a little.*winks* SO right now i am trying to pick up an old habit that i used to have, and it is the perusing of romantic novels in Chinese. I'm sure some of you guys have seen these books before, Chi books with a pretty girl on the front cover and the whole book just reeks of the cheapo-ness you get from a greasy fast food joint. I know i know..i can FEEL your eyes roll at utter amazement. I know i know..I just cannot help it! A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do! When your romantic life is as bland as water and as blank as a paper, you just gotta make up your emptiness with some comforts! Chocolates are not exactly the best substitutes cos well 1) they cost a fortune cos i want the high quality dark chocolates that are not filled with sugar and preservatives and 2) they make me feel FAT. And this is why Bridget Jones looked like THAT. Anyway, i decided to take on a much healthier and fat-free option, which is to read books! I know that they are not of Shakespeare nor Woolf's standard, but hey i like it ok. I just lurvvvv the way stories are told in those books and how the relationship turns out and all that sweet and lovey-dovey stuff. OMG. I am such a sucker for romance. So all this reading does no help to my love life really, cos it kinda makes me crave for a relationship too. In case you think i sound like some besotted and love-crazy bitch, DON'T. I AM NOT like some others. I have a restraining order held against my passions, okay? Got to just grit my teeth and hang on till after the big As. Then i will go work at some boutique, preferably Louis Vuitton cos i wanna have a staff discount, save enough money and then fly to New York or Taiwan and have a great holiday, go to Bali for a spa and then fly to Down Under and work at a farm for around a month. My mum knows of a friend who picks apples at a farm and it pays well, plus the scenery and the relaxation you will get. Anything is better than studying in Singapore and having to deal with all the stress and pressure hurled in your way. Oh yeah the German exchange students who are in our school today are really hot! My goodness the girls look so pretty and have such flawless complexions, skinny bodies and beautiful hair! ARGHHHHHH~So unfair. *groans* Just realised i am putting my GP research in jeopardy if i continue to blabble on. Gotta research on media violence and put it down on paper to answer this essay question. "Is there any value in viewing/screening/exhibiting violent content in the media?" Getting so excited already. Till next time then. |
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