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Sunday, January 18, 2009 / 11:31 PM
bothered I just want to break free and not be so bothered by things like that every time. Like to be able to lead a normal and happy life without having my emotions stirred all the time as i tense up and await for the final decree kind of thing. Gosh. And i really wish i had the resources and ability to do what i hope will propel me further in life but i just feel so caught up in the moment, in balls and chains. I am tired and yet sometimes scared if things are supposed to be this way or is there another way of doing things. Am i missing out on anything? So when i look at others with envy, it struck me that sometimes some things have to be fought for. Some people have to be taken initiative with. Some things cannot wait. On a happier note, i had an early reunion lunch with my extended family. Good lunch i guess, with all the delicacies and chatter. Although there were moments when i felt super indignant and ready to lash out, i am glad things were ok. School edges into the second week tmr. Singapore society readings are quite a horror, if i may wish to even quote Kurtz on this. And i feel really nervous and uptight about my modules. Wonder if i can pull this off man. Hope to meet more people i know this sem. Seems like there are more unfamiliar faces and strange crowds. WHERE IS EVERYONE?? Feeling overwhelmed once again. |
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