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Wednesday, April 14, 2010 / 8:10 AM
for the periwinkles for the periwinkles, the tulips and the vast skies what do you live for? what intrigues you? what matters most? what is the worst thing you have done? what is one thing you wish you could have done today? do you live, or do you exist? do you yearn for something? have you every fought for what you had wanted?  hello my friends :)Well i am in McLennan/Redpath library studying now alone. Wow there are loads of McGill students here in the library, not that surprising since the exams start this Thursday! Wish i had planned my courses more wisely, because some of my friends are actually FREE now and they don't have finals. WAH LAO EH. Seriously, "damn stressed" is used so repetitively that i don't know what to say when people ask me how i am doing already. I know some people would say that i am on exchange and i should just aim to pass, but hey, it's not easy to just aim to pass you know? When you are used to trying your best for your scores and working consistently, then suddenly you are expected to just pass and you slack and slow down, it gets really really frightening. Like you fall into a state of panic and you don't necessarily know what to do and there really isn't anyone who you can talk to about this. Other people might think that i am just being too mugger and too stressed out, but really, if you are in my position right now and seeing the amount of things i have to READ and REMEMBER and internalise, this is just plain shitty. Of course, i could blame someone for my predicament, lamenting the fact that no one stopped me when i said i wanted to take FIVE LEVEL 3000 SOCIOLOGY MODULES all at one go. I mean, what the hell was i thinking? I was just too ambitious and too naive, thinking that it will be a breeze through them all since i was just expected to PASS. Now, in retrospect, SEP WAS MEANT TO SLACK SO WHY DID I TAKE SUCH INTENSIVE COURSES? Haha all the "what ifs" are popping up in my head now. Gosh i typed so much today that my fingers and fingertips actually hurt. I quite like the sound of typing on my laptop and at the school keyboards. Makes me feel like i am channeling my intellect into tiny alphabets that make up words and gradually build into sentences and paragraphs, culminating in pages. And yes i cannot wait for the exams to be over yet i dread its arrival. Oh well, just wanted to type an entry since i have been typing the whole day already. Intensive studying for this week for one paper on Thursday, then another on Tuesday. Gawd! |
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