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Sunday, February 11, 2007 / 5:46 PM
pressurising Just really stressed up these few weeks. Flunked my first math lecture test with a score of 12 out of 25 marks. Sigh. I just don't understand how come it is so easy to do practices and problems but when it comes to the real thing i just stammer. I dunno why i am so lousy in math. Does practice really makes perfect? Dun understand some econs concepts too. Now with macro econs, i dunno if i can manage. My microecons aint very strong and i am still considering whether i should go for tuition. It will be good if i can go for tuition cos i am so weak in that topic. But then there is still CCA and it all just builds up. Sigh this is only the start of the year and i am already feeling stressed up and cant focus. Is there something wrong with me or do i need help? Really, A levels is so tough. Seeing all my juniors getting their O level results and then screaming with tears of joy and elatedness makes me feel so glad at their achievements. They remind me of myself when i was waiting anxiously in the school hall, pondering whether i had gotten good grades to go to a JC. All the tension, "what-ifs", worst case scenarios and butterflies in stomach. Everything became crystal clear as i saw my name on the power point slide alongside the names of the other top scorers and i simply could not believe my eyes. Now it's their turn. Well, as one of my friend puts it, the road to A levels will definitely be hell of a shit but once the exams are over, you will feel like the top of the world. Maybe. I have no idea. Mulling over the stack of notes and assignments, i cannot help but wonder if i can do it. Whether i can pull through and go tackle the bull by its horns. It just feel so insurmountable. Sometimes i just feel so lousy and pathetic and worn out by everything. But i guess i gotta keep going. Ahhhhh... No point fixating on the bad stuff. Gotta look forward to the future! Forget about all the muscle aches, cruel schoolmates and endless reprimands and CHARGE ON!! |
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