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Thursday, March 06, 2008 / 11:29 AM
Pre a-level jitters... A level results will be out tmr, and well there are a thousand emotions going through me right now. I don't want to be flustered and so panicky, after listening to Yvonne last night. She was giving me her point of view about my situation that made me feel different. She was telling me how i should not be feeling so gloomy and in such a low life condition because i am so worried about how i would do for my A levels. In fact, i should take on a more proactive role and be more positive about it. I should not let this affect me so much. It is ok to feel a little scared and worried, but i am trying to not let it eat me up. People around me are saying many things, how they are feeling and what are their expectations. For me, i am just contented to get into NUS. Maybe i am not as ambitious? But having goals and dreams is not really being ambitious. Or perhaps i am just the type of person who goes with the flow and just hopes to keep my head above the water. Guess i shall try to go into NJC campus tmr with a big heart, for the results have already been decided and printed on paper. There really is nothing much i can do except to go to school tmr and receive my results. Of course it will be easy to say that i should be relaxed and carefree about it, but then again i may behave differently when i am in school tmr. I am not calm at all, because i am really worried about my performance. It is a crucial turning point and stage in my life! Then i thought of how it is so taxing to moan and whine... there are others around me who are so good in their studies but i'm just like... normal. SIGH~~~~ Wonder if i should go get myself a bottle of Jim Bean today. Maybe it will come in handy on tmr night. And i should lock up all the windows and keep away all sharp objects. OK I am freaking out for a moment. Haiya. There is no point worrying so much now too. As F puts it, there will always be a way out. I shall see where my results will take me to. And i hope for the very best and the strength to take it all. YOU CAN DO IT SHULI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Labels: A levels |
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