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Saturday, December 20, 2008 / 12:21 AM
Dyc? I suddenly have this really depressing and morbid thought. Seems like the virtual internet world is what most people prefer to stick to nowadays instead of a good call or text message to your friends. That really perturbs me. And this leads me to wonder: Will any of my friends even know when i am DEAD? Like when i don't come online for some time, didn't update my blog, didn't update my Facebook profile, will anyone care? Or would they just think that " OH SHULI AH, hiatus from technology lor." Gawd. I shudder to think. And i am pretty tired these days, possibly due to emotional stress all the time. Like how you try to make things right but somehow it comes back and slap you in the face for even trying. Duh. My neck feels really stiff now. Kind of uncomfortable. And no one would ask if i was okay anyway. OHHHHHH BOYYYYYY. Feeling pathetic at the moment. I guess sometimes it just makes me sick of being the one who takes the initiative all the time, or when i do not get immediate response or reciprocated in the way i thought i would be. GAHH. Gets you down at times. But it's totally cool to be alone at times. You get to get in touch with your inner self, spend some quality "ME" time and just relax! So good huh? Kind of Bella too. It's just the kind of thing that happens with people. Relationships are never simple to begin with, and to start it off, humans are complex creatures. I guess the main reason why i always reach out is due to what is within that is unsatisfying. Like a thirst waiting to be quenched. And tonight i shall drown myself with stars and lullabies. |
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