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Tuesday, December 09, 2008 / 2:07 AM
life in random thoughts ugh i cannot be bothered. I am tired emotionally, as if i have been on this tit for tat machine for too long. I cease to breathe, i get smothered. When will we ever break out of this trap? When will we ever open up our eyes and see what lies beneath the veneer of a normal life? Is this what we were supposed to have come to life for? Sometimes it takes a lot of courage and a little push in the right direction. And by right direction it means that it feels right to yourself and not to be judged with others' standards. Live instead of exist. Have we not all thought of doing something crazy or extraordinary for once in our lives? To really just ignore the weird looks cast by the majority and just break free for once. Be it getting a tattoo, going away for a trip by yourself, taking up a job that others deem "no prospects" and just do what you want and what you like. Somehow, that adventurous spirit gets hidden under the thick slabs of norms and expectations others impose on us, and these rules slowly become part of our lives as we allow them to be. We learn to conform, we learn not to break rules because we all want to be accepted and not rejected. We all have a little Jenny in us. I don't know how is it going to be like for me, but i am most certainly part of the crowd. Somehow when a part of you gets slighted for too long, it fails to restart and dazzle. When you are constantly shoved away and denied, it gets taxing in the long haul. Well, life is not really a box of chocolates. Nothing is dogmatic, especially sayings of the people. You know what you will get if you plan carefully and set out specific goals, but all you don't know is how things will turn out. And sometimes, i have to stop looking high. To not think too much of myself and learn to accept faults, or areas that fail to meet my requirements. Not to be so fickle and picky too. But damn it is not easy. I cannot make up my mind. Fail to decide. Unable to decide. And then we wish we all have a little Moby Dick in us too. Labels: life, people, situations |
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