i hate it that you make me feel this way.
for a while i was hanging on to something
something that vaguely resembled of an outcome that i really wanted
but then you threw it all away
left it exposed and fester
and now there is nothing left of me
as i stagger out of this stupor
knowing that i deserve better
only not knowing when i can meet another guy

i don't know what i want anymore.
you messed up my mind.
now i am not happy to begin school.
at least for this week i feel really down.
RAHH!



i so got to get back my composure