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Friday, August 24, 2007 / 11:13 PM
its all in the attitude Decided to let my creative juices flow and write some stuff on somethings that i have read and experienced today or rather, this crazy week. Monday. School was as per normal, with crazy studying, consolidation lectures on Econs and all the content of market failure swirls like a martini in my head. Tuesday. Lessons all the way till afternoon. Math consultation at the oasis was real fun, cos it was the first time i managed to enjoy a consultation like that. Managed to see a different side of teachers and friends too. Wednesday. Didn't have breakfast, good friend just came for a visit, played hardcore Captain's ball in the morning. Some feedback session at the LT. Read my exchange rate notes anyway. Stayed back at the oasis to study a little. Thursday. Went to Ema's Diner with Joyce and Abi and had loads of wacky fun. We amused ourselves with the game of 5 Stones and Joyce has a video on that. Still waiting for her to send it to me. Then it was Geography and Literature consolidation tutorial. Rather sleepy but still propped myself up with the aid of a nougat. Stayed back till 6.15 pm to ask some questions on Heart of Darkness but got more confused and unsure instead. It is really tough to see the episode through a cracked nut. Friday aka today. Lessons were on as usual, and after the last tutorial a bunch of us stayed back to bitch and gossip, while trying to figure out the SRAS AND LRAS curves and blah blah. Did some integration sums and then walked around the school cos it was Open Day. Saw a SJAB junior and kind of dissuaded her from coming to NJ. What..You wanna be grey for 2 years of your life? Huh. That's kind of exciting. Thrilled to see Swiss ppl coming anyway. Then got home, had dinner and chionged down to SYC for Friday Rendezvous cos i was the emcee and saw HIM. Heart fluttered a little.Phew! Did an okay stint as the emcee anyway. Well, seems like the week was rather boring and studious. Kind of loved school this year more than the last, cos my attitude wasnt kind of right to begin with. This year, i figured it has improved because i am much cheerful and less angsty now. Right. My topic is on "attitude". Not going to be GP-ish, so its all random talk and typing going on here. Saw something i really hated today in TIME. Several German-born Indians were beaten up during a street festival in Berlin, and no one bothered to save them even as they ran helter-skelter for the pizzeria. It was quite sadistic, as the on-lookers cheered on the group of 40 man to beat up the Indians, while shouting "Foreigners Out!". Quoting from Kurtz, it is indeed "The horror! The horror!" (Kurtz is the character from the book Heart of Darkness). Why the hell did they treat fellow Germans of a different skin colour they way they did despite all of us being in a CIVILLISED society? Isn't civilisation made up of civil people who act and behave responsibly? This is rather shocking, and even PM Merkel was outraged by this act of racial discrimination. These Indians were fellow Germans like the perpetrators of this heinous crime. Why do people then choose to look at others in a different light just because they look different? Isn't it kind of IRONIC when we are in such a globalised world, and should be more accepting and understanding of all people from all walks of life? It scares me that despite our claims of being civilised and educated, some people still make this mistake. It just pains me to see such injustice and unfairness just because we are deemed "different" therefore "inferior". Then there was an article about Mother Teresa. She was a really noble woman, spending all her life in slums and helping the poor. Her new biography entitled Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light speaks of all her "spiritual dryness" and "darkness" that had lasted for ten whole years. It was indeed overwhelming to hear about her correspondence with her seniors and confessors, that she was so tortured and unhappy, yet she had to continue in her mission. The most striking quote was this: Jesus has a very special love for you. [But] as for me-The silence and the emptiness is so great-that i look and do not see,-Listen and do not hear. And i wondered how related this is to the Chorus in Murder in the Cathedral. Everything seems so inter-related. Then i saw a pretty girl with a beautiful talent, yet was rude and condescending. It just spoils everything plonker. Anyway, everything is determined by your attitude. So if i choose to be victimised and see my tormentor as a greater force that i cannot overcome, then i am destined to be under oppression. If you choose to react violently to a passing remark, then it will bug you for the rest of the day. So, be pro-win win. Settle for a win-win situation. If that bitch next door continues to be sarcastic or mean towards you, let her be. It will make her day. If you feel out of control, pause and think for a while, then pick up your shield and fight your inner demons. And now, the demon i will slay is the A levels. It is a fantastic voyage into the heart of the unknown. Labels: thoughts |
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