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Monday, April 28, 2008 / 12:06 PM
I guess i am the kind of person who behaves like Pip sometimes. I let things snowball, go out of control and perhaps explode, before i step up and try to salvage the mess. Victimizing myself is not difficult, for i always feel inferior and nevertheless, don't know how to react to certain situations and people and i feel left out at times. Then i remember i had a keen interest in public relations, talking to large groups of audiences and just making myself noticed. Whoa. How the hell am i going to do that if i cannot even manage my circle of friends well? Am i being too domineering or bitchy or sarcastic? I don't really know myself well. It as if there is this third person looking at me and i feel so out of place. Sometimes you are in the loop, sometimes you fall out of it and land with a really bad crash. Gosh, this world is full of confusion. The unassuming ones get devoured and the sly ones get on with the game. Whatever happened to equality and brotherhood? I feel like nothing is going on straight in my head. I am tired and sleepy, and i just cannot seem to focus and figure out a plan. What exactly do i want to do? What does the future hold? Will my decisions be the right ones? ARGH!!! I feel so alone in this world even though i have so many people around me. It is as though you are screaming yet no one seems to hear you. Some people may attribute this to a belated teen angst, but its not. Haiya no point saying so much. The world is unfair, so we just gotta live with it. Gonna visit the oral surgeon later. See my wisdom teeth how. Argh. Stupid teeth problems.I HATE ALL THE TROUBLE!!! |
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