Thursday, August 25, 2011 / 5:12 PM
Havent been blogging regularly, and thus have subjected this cyber realm to a little bit of drop ins from random strangers and autobots.
NUSSU Elections are coming up, and well i must say that the competition feels rather intense. Perhaps i don't have the support of many juniors, since well, i am already Year 4 and have not been super around in all the orientation camps. But i guess it's really okay, because i really want to do what i set out to do. I don't want to waste any of my time doing things that i don't enjoy anymore. Just do it, i tell myself. Even though there is a chance that i might be shattered or upset, i don't care anymore. Life is way too short to think about what other people think about you.
So this elections, i am going in with a super big open heart and let the FASS student population decide.
Today's weather has been cranky, and the rain reminds me of Er Ge again. There was a huge hornet that flew into my room, and of course, the first thing i did was to ask "Is that you, Er Ge?". I guess i pretty much do that to all the little creatures that appear in front of me when i am feeling most melancholic. And talking to myself sometimes does elicit strange stares from people. But i am okay with that in my universe.
Year 4 has started, and i gotta tell ya, people seem to be really competitive. I feel this sense of extreme mission to succeed no matter what from the cohort, and that includes stepping on each others' bodies to climb to the top. Pretty jarring concept there, but the intuition and ESP all points to that. I don't know am i being paranoid or something, but there is this morbid fear that everyone is way better than me and i had better pull up my socks real high.
All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on- Henry Ellis