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Wednesday, February 24, 2010 / 1:52 PM
walking among giants I guess everyone loves to see people perform under pressure, seeing them excel under severe circumstances or under unwholesome situations. Like the Olympic figure skater who had to continue with her routine despite missing her mother, who passed away just hours before her scheduled competition at the airport due to a heart attack. Although the fight for a medal is tough, a part of her has been completed with the end of the music. Somewhere among the crowds, i am sure her mother was watching her dear little girl perform with the best of her ability, shining like star in the skating rink. We are all people on a stage. Some people perform better than others, getting more attention and more glory. Some serve as onlookers, secondary performers who garnish the stage with their existence. It's like a mime sometimes, where you don't know what you should really say. To some, the world being a stage is fun. They put on their thickest make up and most garish costumes and strut their stuff, not giving a heck to the world and their comments. Those people are silly, or you can call them courageous. Some refuse the make up, refuse the silly outfits and choose to be themselves. They step onto the stage light, with a spring in their steps and giving the brightest smile, emanating happiness and clarity. How can you avoid such a glorious performer? But even though they are the best performers, they don't get the loudest applause. Maybe they are not what the audiences want? Maybe they are not happy with the kind of performance they are giving. Heck the world. So pretentious. So tiring. I don't want to do things i don't like. I want to be comfortable around the people i love and not have to always brandish a facade. What is the point in doing a performance all the time, when i exhaust my attention and patience and inject all my efforts and i do not get the result i want? Why the hell do i have to do it your way, as if i have to seek for your approval before i can truly exhibit myself, present my talents? Why are you like that? Why can't you just like me for who i am? Why do i have to act? In any case, if i am not happy i will just seek alternatives. There has got to be more to life than just this. Why should i even bother myself over some minions? It's not as if it's going to be worth it. So in any case, i will live my life as i deem fit and you can mingle and conform to the rest of the people, trying to be cool and in, deluding yourself that you are safe and out of sight from any malicious retorts. I might not like your face, i might not think like you, i might not dress like you. But we are all unique individuals who have their unique ways of living. We shouldn't be the same. That would be utterly scary. And just because we are different doesn't mean that we should hate each other. Don't judge, just embrace. That is my latest mantra. It is not easy to be able to wholly embrace someone for who they are, but making the effort to think about it is a start in itself. The going may be tough, the process may be arduous but in anyway, i shall try to do it. I know that i might not be consistent enough, and sometimes i lapse into a state of hell, but i am going to do it. Love, peace, life. It's a fab walk among giants. |
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Friday, February 19, 2010 / 1:41 AM
Really lor, i feel damn pessimistic now. WHY DIDN'T I STUDY CONSISTENTLY AND NOT PON LECTURES??? 30%...30%!!! |
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Thursday, February 18, 2010 / 2:57 PM
fml mid terms I feel so screwed for my mid terms tomorrow. Both are bad enough and i am absolutely NOT sure if i have anything to write too. Damn. Health and Development: ??? Sociology of Work and Industry: ??? It is a really terrible feeling to be unprepared and yet you have to take the test. I feel so so so wretched now. Too tired to push on studying anyway. And nothing is going inside my head. And both mid terms are a friggin 30% each of my grade. HOW? :( Really dying, cannot tahan anymore. |
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Wednesday, February 17, 2010 / 3:21 AM
ARGH IS IT A CRIME FOR ME TO NOT FEEL WELL AND WAKE UP LATE AND MISSED CLASS? IT'S LIKE AN HONEST MISTAKE OKAY I JUST TOOK A WHILE TO TELL YOU. YOU DON'T REPLY EMAILS FAST SO WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO. AND I HAD TO STUDY FOR MID TERMS HOW WOULD I KNOW YOU WOULD BE SO STRICT WITH ATTENDANCE? 5% GONE JUST LIKE THAT. I HATE MCGILL ALREADY. |
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Monday, February 15, 2010 / 12:27 PM
vday blues Happy Valentine's Day! Emo nemo. Went to Quebec City today again with my brother. It was all right, didn't shop much though. And he wasn't feeling very well too. I am now very stressed out. So many things to think about. So many people to handle and juggle. ARGHHHHH I AM GOING TO OVERDOSE ON CHOCOLATES I TELL YOU. And i don't feel very well now. Ugh. |
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Thursday, February 11, 2010 / 8:01 AM
mad OH MY GOD I AM GOING CRAZY TRYING TO READ THIS ANTHROPOLOGY READING THAT IS 18 PAGES LONG. AND I STILL GOT ONE MORE 25 PAGES READING TO FINISH. I AM GOING NUTS. THIS IS MADNESS! WHY SO MUCH READINGS?! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY??? i need chocolate. sweet stuff. now. |
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Friday, February 05, 2010 / 3:08 PM
SCHOOL Gosh i ponned class today again. Couldn't wake up in time. The class was at 10am but i woke up at 11am. Nice huh. Sociology of work and industry is really crazy. I don't know why i took it in the first place. I honestly don't even know if the lecturer is teaching or just reciting stuff from his materials. His lecture slides are useless! And he talks so fast with a bunch of info. How am i supposed to write or even type that fast? Eeeeks. Its really frustrating. So i ended up reading my coursepack instead. Gotta watch my money better. Tired! At least we bought the bus tickets to Toronto already. Gotta do the rest another time i guess. Hopefully we can get it done real soon :) JIAYOU! |
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Monday, February 01, 2010 / 1:48 AM
into the first month of montreal life the view of montreal from the pavillion above Mount Royal  my first cup of coffee from second cup   lunch at the desautels school of management. the cafeteria is called sinfully asian lol! and the bubble tea is yam flavoured, and it tastes awfully ARTIFICIAL.  dinner at home! one of the more scrumptious ones.  lunch at a cafe near school  breakfast at home: orange juice, scrambled eggs with mushroom  Here i am with more pictures! Some are already on my facebook :) Doing a post while i wait to go out. Weather these days are really cold, with temperatures around -18 deg celsius with a windchill of -33! YIKES. On thursday night the whole group of exchange ppl came to my house and we kind of tried to discuss our plans for the winter break. The wind was so cold that well, we practically couldn't walk properly! I was blown sideways while walking! Terribleeee! And the weather has been so cold for the past couple of days that well, i skipped the whole day of school on Friday and went to get groceries and did 2 readings only. Yikes. I AM BEHIND TIME LA WAKE UP YOUR IDEA SHULIIIIIIIIIII!!! Gonna head to the snow festival later. Think its called la cote des neiges. Hahhaa i wanna make a snow angel! :))) So excited! And then there is the road trip coming up! We are planning to go Toronto :) And cross the border to buy my kate spade and miumiu and nike and longchamp! HAHAHHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHHAHA! Can u feel how excited i am?? WOOOOOOTS! Gotta study hard and play hard! :) FIGHTING! It's already the first month! Time pasts really fast here. And i love the partying although i didn't go to many. Guess it's really the company. The snow here! Food here sometimes tastes not bad! Hahaha. And i gotta plan my 21st birthday party. Like omg. |
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