Thursday, August 28, 2008 / 1:31 AM
school. I think i worry too much all the time. I get stressed up easily and i think A LOT. Like recent events have affected me in some way. School is the number one thing. I keep thinking if i had made a right choice to come to NUS instead of going for NTU Mass Communications. Studying CS seems to have a better future as compared to what i am doing now. At least CS is more structured and preps me more. SIGH. I don't even know if i want to continue majoring in Sociology. The exposure module is pretty drab and i cannot seem to understand the lecturer. Everything seems so archaic! And the thing is i am not so sure of my future with a degree in sociology... Man, i just feel terrible deep down. I keep wondering if i had made the right choice at all. Should i switch courses? How to trudge on? Sigh. This is why i feel so old. |
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Sunday, August 24, 2008 / 11:35 PM
end of 2nd week Its been a really hectic week, with school, driving lessons, external commitments, mandatory events and well miscellaneous stuff. Quite exhausted, and just thought i would fill in an entry. Went to collect my Nike Human Race race pack, and waited a whopping 2 hours for it. Met some idiotic people who really don't deserve my attention, even if they are supposedly "famous". After that went to Manhattan Fish Market for some dinner, and ended up feeling very sick at the oiliness and starchiness. Walked around central but realised that most of the shops were closed or closing at only 9pm! Guess the human traffic is pretty pathetic, and it has gotta be a challenge to sustain business. Well its the end of the first 2 weeks of school, and the end of my 3 day week. From tmr onwards all tutorials will commence, and it will be hectic again. Really gotta stop procrastinating and just get down to work. Hopefully my tutorial class will be all right and i'll meet some nice and cool ppl. It's a big pond around here. And i gotta send my fujitsu for some serious repair work to be done. Dunno wad the heck is happening to it; its becoming really sloooooooooooowwwwwww and seems to be retarded in many ways. ARGH. So new and like that already! Better go concuss now. Gotta go school early tmr! |
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Friday, August 15, 2008 / 1:21 AM
apprehension Currently, I am trying to work out my timetable. It sucks because well, i don't seem to share much tutorial slots with anyone else. Not that it should be a major concern to anyone else, but i really think its a big deal. Imagine walking into the tutorial class and everyone is in their own cliques already?! Do you know how terrible that may be? Its gonna be deja vu all over again. I keep trying to synchronise timetables with my peers, but it seems like its a one-sided affair. I'm always asking and probing, trying to get into the same tutorial slot as them. But is there really a need to? Most people would tell me to just register for the tutorial slots that i want and heck care about the rest. Your timetable should work for you. And yet i keep thinking that it would be nice if i were to be in the same tutorial as my acquaintances, so at least it doesnt feel that daunting and work could actually be easier. But then it aint always that easy to begin with. Having to know new people from every class may be exciting, but it can be tiring too. How many times would i have to introduce myself and also take an effort to remember names and characteristics? Usually i'm open to meeting new people, but when it comes to work i get a little apprehensive. When you need to work in groups, it is always essential to have the right attitudes and personalities. I will definitely give my best in the group, cos i am responsible for my tasks and will also think for the rest of the group. But not everyone thinks in the same way. That is why i am troubled AGAIN. Quite irritated over this and well, as far as i could tell myself to just choose the tutorial slots that i want, i still cannot help but want to go for some tutorial slots with friends. And the meaning of friends gets blurred sometimes, because not everyone sticks around for you. Some choose to stay and wait for you to catch up, some run along while you make an effort to jog, while some choose to desert you when you feel like making an effort. SIGH. At the rate that i WORRY, i'll soon be 40. Gonna get some sleep and think about it tomorrow. Labels: people, school, thoughts |
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Friday, August 08, 2008 / 2:38 AM
o week 08 Its the 2008 Beijing Olympics today and well am i glad to have spent some quality time with nice people eating and munching and talking at the cheese prata shop! O Week has finally came to an end, but well i don't know if i should feel happy or sad. Perhaps sad that the whole OG will be split up because not everyone takes the same modules and all. Feeling happy that i have chosen to come to O Week and had gotten to know many more people and made some wonderful friendships. The feeling that i get from Arts Camp and O Week is a little different, and there are less burdens and emotional upheavals in one way or another. A spectacular display of people from all walks of life, all gathered at O Week. Simply amazing and mind-blowing. Exaggerating it a little, but i really enjoyed O Week ALOT. I was late for the first day cos i had driving lessons in the morning, and i turned up and found my new OG pretty pleasing. Everyone seem comfortable with each other and the whole chemistry was fantastic. Of course, there were still pockets of awkwardness and hesitancy, but overall it felt goooooooooood. The 2nd day was also ok, although i was MIA for the PSI day cos of NDP Preview as i had to be at TBSC by 2pm. Was looking through the photos the OG took and they had loads of fun. Then came monday, tuesday... O school day was also fun! Eating watermelons and all.. And then there was the captain's ball game where we played so hard and cheered so hard. It was really fun. The beach games on wednesday was the best! Really saw how the guys went all out to do their part and the girls gave their all, some taking off their shirts to squeeze the most water into a bottle and such. Felt really bad that i didn't take part in most of the activities but merely carried water and belongings... Couldnt get wet cos i had NDP rehearsal in the evening! But well it was certainly exciting watching the rest play. Went to school late today cos i was told to come later. Had wanted to join the rest of the OG at west coast park for war games but there was a whole lot of confusion and miscommunication, so we reached school at about 5 plus. Then headed for the deck and had a scrumptious dinner with lots of chicken wings cos it was a free buffet for all o week-ers. Played the chitty chitty bang bang game and also polar bear. Whoa i must really say that the polar bear game took a looooooooooong time to complete cos we didn't really know who are the polar bears and hunters. LOL! I was totally out of the game cos i was busy eating and well, could hear mumblings of their conversations. But it went well! After that we all headed back to LT8 for our finale night and Absolut mambo-ed away! Councillors had to wear these durian gloves on one hand and mambo. Haha... I don't know the moves so just tried to keep up! Then the rest of the houses put up skits and performances, and it was superb! We then watched videos and photo collages of O Week thus far, and all the house ics gave really sentimental speeches and all, before we proceeded to the deck as an OG to celebrate birthdays of our OG mates. Cute! We took lots of pictures and all, then the whole bunch of us headed off. On hindsight, O Week tested my patience and interpersonal skills very much. And i am glad to have attended O Week! Really a big hug to all those people in my OG and i really thank you all for being part of such a wonderful memory. YEAH MAN! (ark ark sia!) |
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Tuesday, August 05, 2008 / 10:39 PM
T I R I N G. Kind of an understatement in itself. |
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Monday, August 04, 2008 / 11:13 PM
ramblings Superficiality is the new black, the 2.55 Chanel of our era. You wonder when will all these cease, but it doesn't, my friend. You try to run and hide, cover yourself in thick blankets and flannel. What is the use? Stay gold, they like to say. Talk is dirt cheap, typing even cheaper. And then you ask yourself if you have came into this world for all these. So i prayed and lamented. Wished that i could have my way all the time. Or if i could have the power to make it right. Being plastic suffocates. Trudge on with all my might. Try to deserve what i should deserve. Not a slave, not a maid. We are all from our parents. We have people who dote on us and really care. All of us need to be loved and cared about. So what gives you the right to trample like that? So tired and sleepy right now. I shall leave all these to tomorrow. |
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Saturday, August 02, 2008 / 12:24 AM
WHOA Today was the last day of bidding and frankly speaking, it went past in a flurry of excitement, cheers and absent-mindedness. I was freaked out, cos well we didn't have much time to do any bidding or what so ever the whole day, and i managed to capture snippets of moments to go online and check out CORS. One freaking expensive module i got was Southeast Asia studies, at a whopping 200 points. DAMN. Should have opted for jap studies if i knew it was going to be like this! Right now i am sneezing non-stop. Very tired and zonked out and there is still driving tmr! Twice per week... Bah and its the first slot of the day. And then there is NDP Preview in the afternoon that will stretch all the way to the evening and i'll probably get home by around midnight? Plus the perspiration and exhaustion that hopefully, melts away with some nice sleep. Gonna start on my tuition kid this sunday. Hopefully i can do a good job in teaching him ENGLISH. Honestly, i am a little worried that i may not be able to teach english well. It seems like a pretty difficult subject to teach and i have NO syllabus to follow! Teaching Geography was relatively easier, because all you have to do is to make sure the students understand the content and explain and TA DA! JOB DONE. For English i really am not that sure. And after tuition i gotta run straight down to Sentosa for NUSSD orientation activities. Shucks man! Freshmen ceremony is this coming monday, and i wonder if we have to dress up properly for it? Hmm. OKAY it has been a really tiring day filled with cheers, songs, hump-ings and many other mixed feelings. Take it all man! |
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